Back To School

What is it about being middle aged and going back to school all about? For me the last two years have been everything about learning. Not school learning but Spiritual learning. I have also recently gone back to school to learn a new career. It seems starting over is a given no matter what age we are in life. For me going back to school has helped me accomplish more than I could ever dream. How does it fit in with what I have been experiencing; it is part of the lesson of growth. When I said Yes to God to follow He is also leading me to what He wants of me. My Spiritual Director suggested I check a Third Order. Which I did and hopefully I will be accepted. I also recently had started a new job. All things considered everything seems fine doesn't it; work days, school evenings, study, sleep. How do I fit time in for God? I think about Him when I get up, when I work, drive etc. But the part missing out of all this is also the greatest to be in a Third Order is to attend Mass daily and I was unable to with this new schedule. So while I was in my psychology class the discussion was about happiness. There is something to be said about going to an interview for a job getting the job and then when you are on the way home you should be happy about it. I wasn't, I actually cried on the way home. You see I was injured and unable to work for a while, I had just filed a claim with unemployment, and the requirement was to look for a job. I did, so when I was given an interview I had to accept the job. Well anyway, one day I was at work and I used the office restrooms. Sometime later I was approached and told not to use them. I was to ask permission next time. So the next morning I decided to quit that job. Where is the lesson in this, it's one of dignity and respect. As they say as one door closes so does another one open up. I am happy and at peace with that decision; because with God as my guide He will direct me to where He wants me to go. This past year has been exactly that, one of constant starting over. That money is not as important as happiness and its definitely not as important as God's Love. I would rather lose everything than lose God's Love. And that's exactly what has happened. I lost everything to gain the most precious Jewel, The Heart of God. So out of this lesson, I was given a way to learn a new skill to enable me to survive as I embark on a new life with God as hopefully a Third Order member. God Bless.